I’ll be honest I’m glad to see the back of 2017. In a year when I should have been ecstatic at the fact that our baby was born without any issues, I was a mess. There’s no nicer way to say it really. I struggled for months with postnatal anxiety and I’m still not over the final hurdle. There are days that are tough but I’m managing a million times better than I was a few months ago. Even so, I’m starting this year with a particular mindframe that is going to keep me balanced and in control. I’m finding the positive again and I’m living to my full potential. Or at least trying.
I feel sad when I think back to the first quarter of my baby’s life. The fourth trimester when she was living outside of me but desperately in need of me. I somewhat felt the same, feeling an intense connection with her and only feeling safe and calm when I had her in my arms. It was as though I knew what I was doing with her but everything else around me felt alien and I struggled to keep up with it all.
My sister once described depression as though you were drowning. Struggling under water, desperate for air but unable to pull yourself out. It’s a feeling like no other that sets off a catalyst of panic and fear. I don’t want to feel like that anymore so I’m determined to embrace my life and take control. As much as I can.
Changes are needed. Many changes and plans are being put in place for me to find my potential and seize it. To explore a new side of me, as Momma Bear and as Ger. Never has my blog motto Becoming the new me through parenting been so apt, so true and so poignant. Since this new me is still being put in place, I can’t divulge too much but no doubt I’ll be writing about my not so wild, but very important changes soon.
There are a few reasons as to why I write this blog but the most important and the one reason as to why I’m still here 18 months later (It’s said that most new blogs fail or disappear after three months so yayyy me!) is because, while my life, my thoughts, my opinions may not be overly amazing or interesting, they’re relatable and if you read my blogs and see yourself in them, if you feel better, comforted, less alone and uplifted at times then that’s worth my time to keep writing.
I’m an ordinary woman, with a family just like yours, kids, money issues and thoughts just like yours. The difference is I’m writing about the big issues, the small issues, the annoying and weird issues. But maybe you could too. If you’ve ever wanted to write your own blog and are bamboozled by the whole thing let me know, I’d gladly help you start. Blogging has given me something much more than I ever thought it would and is one of the most satisfying things I’ve ever done.
And hey, if you’re like me and want to start 2018 in a way that will see you grow, live, explore and reach the potential you always dreamed of then do it. What’s stopping you or holding you back? If you want to change career then apply for that supply chain management masters if thats your thing. Or if your determined to meet The One this year then join a community of like-minded individuals and find the person of your dreams. And hey, if Wexford isn’t exotic enough for you then explore the top destinations in 2018.
Last year I made resolutions. I failed miserably. This year, I will simply live to my potential. And succeed.
The point is, that you have potential to fulfill your dreams. I’m saying this to myself as much as I am to you because change, taking risks and finding a new path is terrifying. There are so many things that could go wrong but what if it goes right? What if it’s destined to go right and you didn’t try? For me, 2018 is a year of intense change. What is it for you?
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