Over Heaven’s Hill has been an incredible space for me to find myself and be true to who I am. I started this blog for a couple of reasons. Firstly, to write. I have always been a writer at heart. The words flow and the rhythm brings a calm to my life, if only for a few moments. I missed the outlet writing gave me and desperately wanted it back. Secondly, I wanted to share how life drastically changes when you become a parent. It’s something I wasn’t fully aware of and slowly but surely came to terms with it. And finally, I wanted to find (and keep) that part of me I knew was always in there. The Geraldine that may have become lost in amongst the maternity leave. The me that stood at the sidelines as the reality of motherhood took over. I didn’t want to become consumed by a new life. I wanted, in amongst the madness of everyday parental existence, to still be me – the woman B married and loved, the person who started this journey of being Momma Bear. I am not one for New Years resolutions. I have never made one because I know I’m unlikely to keep them – I’m not one for disappointing myself. 2017, however, is my first exception.
I am going to be a writer, an author perhaps.
Some would argue that I already am with my blog and recent venturing into the world of Irish parenting magazines but for me there is a bar I have set and I have yet to reach it. Since starting the blog, and sharing my short stories and poetry with you, I have had so much more positive feedback and support than I ever imagined I’d receive.
There’s a few of you out there who think I’m not that bad of a writer!
So that’s it, my one and only resolution is to get onto the right path to make this forever long lasting dream a reality. I am a writer – now to let the world know.
I’ve set myself a challenge. A challenge I attempted before. A challenge that seems insurmountable. I have a novel, half written. In fact I have two, but lets start this race slowly. I have a novel and I’m going to finish it. I’m going to get myself an agent and I’m going to get that first novel published. Then we’ll see what happens with novel two.
The publishing world is a mega mind-boggling field. I’ve shimmied in and out of it for years and hid away for far too long. Writing this blog has got me back to doing something that is rooted deep in my personality and soul. I’m determined to crack that publishing world and become a part of it. So many have done it before me. Why not me? Why shouldn’t I be in there too?
Now that I’ve told you all about my plan, I can’t go back. This weekend, I am setting out a schedule so that I keep my blog going and have the important time to finish my novel. My aim is to have the draft finished by April.
I’m due to go on maternity leave in May with Little Bean due mid to late May so April really is the limit. Sure, that’s not a problem… right? Albeit, I’ll have to curtail my distractions, which at the moment, is primarily mentally decorating the baby’s room!
This is the first time in a long, long time, that I felt the determination and drive to do this. I’ve dreamed about having this novel written for so long and I truly do believe I can do it because I want it so badly. Let’s just hope the writing is better than I think and not worse, otherwise uh oh!
Do you think I can do it? By April? Eek Wish me luck 🙂